Feeling Run-Down

I’m not exactly sure what it is… Maybe it’s winter blues, PMS, fighting a cold, too busy, not enough sleep, low on iron. I have been eating less meat lately and am perpetually on the lower end of the iron scale. Maybe it’s all of it, or none of it. I’m just feeling run down, emotionally and physically. I’m not sick, just really tired. Emotionally I’m feeling overwhelmed, unmotivated and out of control.

I’ve been really hard on myself too, which isn’t helping my mood. I hate feeling like this. I’m being critical of everything… the cleanliness of the house, odd jobs not yet done, stupid things I’ve said or even thought, my poor husband (who is generally pretty wonderful at handling mood swings), various tasks I should be completing but too overwhelmed and critical of my efforts to even attempt.

I think another part of my mood is discouragement for not having Sofie home. Each stage is taking so much longer than we had expected. I’m scarred this last part will take longer too. It is such a weird feeling to know you have child waiting for you in another country… not just an idea of a child, but a real child with a name and a birthday. Sometimes my arms almost, literally hurt to be holding Sofie in my arms. I cuddle Livi extra on days like that.

One Year & the 100th

On a friends blog I read, she always marks her milestone blog posts and is up to 600! I’m not quite there yet, but I was curious what my number was. This post marks my 100th post on this blog! and it is the one year anniversary since we started our adoption process!

One year ago, today, we announced to everyone that we were going to adopt a toddler! Original post is HERE. We have come such a long way this year, but not quite far enough for my liking! I have learned so much and am thankful for all the support we have received so far. Most of the reactions to our news has been very positive and I can’t wait to introduce Sofie to you all!

How fabulous to imagine where we will be next year!

What’s Next?

I don’t have anything knew too say about the adoption but thought I would outline what we can expect in the next few months…

Even though we know who Sofie is, we don’t yet have the legal proposal. Our Bulgarian and Canadian agencies have her file exclusively, so she can’t be taken by any other family. We are currently waiting for the official proposal to come through all the legal channels of the Hague Convention. Once we accept it we are then waiting for a court date.

Court will take place in Bulgaria. Our Bulgarian agency will go on our behalf and there the Judge will hopefully finalize the adoption and issue an adoption order! She will then be ours! I think I can then publicly share her picture 🙂 Anido then applies for her new Bulgarian birth certificate, passport and Canadian Citizenship. There will be a transit visa to go in her passport to get her to Canada. After this is all approved we can go get her!

The exact timeline is very dependent on how fast the Bulgarian MOJ act in getting our proposal through the Convention and how soon we get a court date. Pray that it is soon!!! The birth certificate, passport and Citizenship “shouldn’t” take too long, but a little extra prayers for those would be great too 🙂 We’ve been told 3-6 months altogether. I’m trying to gear myself up for the 6 month wait because nothing has been on the short side of the estimates yet. I can’t help but hope that there is a first time for everything!

In other news… There is not really any news. We are just maintaining our routine. I think Livi is getting a little board with me since we haven’t had many play dates or seen any non-family members. We have a few planned in the next month so that will be good for her. It is so hard when we don’t have a car and live so far away from everyone!

I have been trying new dinner recipes and loving it! I’m not good at meal planning but have really been making an effort. We have definitely been saving money and are using up all the beans, rice and meat sitting in our cupboard and freezer. I’m also trying to eat a lot more vegetarian meals and loving it! It is much cheaper and we don’t need to eat as much meat as our culture does regularly. I’m also loving all the spices I’m discovering. Jon is a little wary of my skills, especially when I venture from the recipe. I don’t know what his problem is. I maintain that it usually works out 🙂 If you have any fabulous recipes you’d like to share, send them over this way! Preferably easy and not too many ingredients.