Month: April 2012

Pee Hills Pt. 2

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More on those life changing pee hills I mentioned in my last post.

Photoshopped because not enough room for the writing … but you get the idea.

Just to make our life a little more interesting, right in the middle of our two days of house buying and selling we had our biggest “pee hill”. We found out we are pregnant.

Yup. Unexpectedly, blessedly, terrifyingly pregnant.

We had no idea. We were actively trying not to get pregnant. We weren’t even sure we wanted to be pregnant again. We knew we wanted another child, we just didn’t know how we wanted that child to come to us. Adopting from the foster system had been swimming around in our heads. I guess it was decided for us!

Although this has been quite the shock and I was having a hard few days with the idea, I am taking comfort in the fact that this really does feel meant to be and God-lead. Sunday we made an accepted offer and listed our house. Monday we found out we were pregnant and Tuesday we sold our house. I’m sure Jon would not have made an offer on the house if he knew we were pregnant.

The only reason we found out on the Monday was because I was sick with a sinus infection and went to the clinic for some antibiotics. I knew I was one day late and I hadn’t had any of the usual pre-menstrual spotting but I figured it was because of the stress and excitement of finding and buying a new house. I thought I’d just be extra responsible and get a quick test before the doctor put me on antibiotics, just to be safe.

As I walked in to the exam room I saw “PT poss” on the paper the nurse had hung on the door. It didn’t register with me at all. I remember thinking that was a weird short hand to say I wasn’t pregnant. I was in a bit of denial I think. Then BAM. The nurse says “yes, your pregnant”. I started hyperventilating and the nurse stared at me terrified she’d done something wrong. She thought I was expecting a yes and that I was a bright, fast yes on the test. I reassured her that it was a good thing but that I just wasn’t expecting it.

My head was swimming. I just sat in the room for a few minutes mumbling “holy shit” over and over.

While waiting for my meds I grabbed a Congrats card for the Daddy to be. I quickly wrote a silly note about  Jon getting to be snipped sooner than we thought. He actually took a full 60 seconds to register the card was talking about him. We are both shocked and still processing it but we are getting excited now.

So, knowing my conception date, I’m 7 weeks pregnant. I was only on day 4 of my cycle when I got pregnant! I still had my period that morning. I ovulated two weeks early. We had been using this rhythm method with “capping” it for birth control for 6 years. I am very regular… or at least was… and we thought we had this whole birth control thing in the bag. Apparently, your body changes as you get closer to 30 though! Oops. I’m  only 5 weeks pregnant based on my last period but I know when we conceived. Not sure if we are going to do a dating ultrasound or not. I doubt it. Either way I figure I’m due around Christmas.

I still have mixed feelings. Of course I am so excited to be blessed to bring new life in to this world again. I can’t wait to feel baby kick inside me and see who he or she grows to become, but I feel guilty. So many children have already been born and need a family. This world is so over populated already. And then there is Sofie. She still needs me.  She still needs to be carried, sleeps in the crib, fights me and tantrums. How is a new baby going to affect her still present need to be constantly reassured. She is not ready to share me yet.

I’m scared too for the health of this baby. Because the possibility of being pregnant was so far out of my mind, I was not watching what I ate, drank or did. We made a retaining wall this month and I moved big heavy allan blocks. I had sashimi twice around 5.5 weeks pregnant. I wasn’t on a prenatal vitamin until this week. I even had a Bailey’s paralyzer almost every night for about 2 weeks in there. If you know anything about how I mix drinks you know I don’t cheap out on the alcohol. It is out of my control now and I need to let go. God knows what He is doing. I’m trying to trust Him to keep my baby safe.

I’ve cried tears of anger and confusion, fear and resentment but I think that is all ending now. Joy and excitement are creeping in and I’m looking forward to hearing this ones heart beat in the next few weeks. I’m feeling like we are where we are supposed to be in God’s hopes for us even though I don’t understand it. This baby is meant to be here and he is going to be something amazing in my life.

I am so blessed.

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Pee Hills Pt. 1

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You know that feeling you get when you drive really fast over a hill while sitting at the back of a van or bus? Or when you crest the top of a hill on a roller coaster and start going down? My family always called them “pee hills” because we feel like we have to pee… in a good way.

This last week and a half has been filled with “pee hills”. Life changing pee hills.

The end of the week before, I couldn’t sleep one night and happened upon MLS.ca. I found a house in our neighborhood advertising a walk out 3 bedroom suite and 4 bedrooms up. Seemingly perfect. So we went and looked at it. It wasn’t quite as perfect as we thought so we decided to check out other homes in the area that had the potential to be perfect.

On Thursday, we found it. Our home. All of us agreed. It is a brand new home with a two bedroom walk out suite. Three bedrooms up with an open concept living area and a fourth bedroom downstairs for the front door.  We will build a third bedroom in half of the garage with a second bathroom for the suit as soon as possible for Mom and the ladies. We are giving up a huge yard but we kind of figured that would have to be sacrificed.

It has been all too easy. You might say God-lead even. The seller accepted our first offer on Sunday night and we listed our house at the same time. Tuesday we had our first and only showing and then sold our house! The buyer gave us the price we hoped for on the first bid! This was almost too easy. I keep expecting something to go horribly wrong. We are still waiting on subject removal at the end of this week for our home and then the one we are buying next week. With the way things have been falling in to place, I’m hoping everything continues as smoothly. As long as every thing goes through, moving day is June 5.

I’ll post some pictures once the subjects are removed.

Stay tuned for part 2…

Newness

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I’m fighting a cold. My throat hurts. My arms feel week and shaky. My nose is dripping and making me cough incessantly. It is the weekend so I’ve been taking it easy and really trying to get better before another busy week starts. My life does NOT allow for time to be sick. On top of being a mom and my children always wanting something from me, we have an average of 2 appointments each day Monday to Thursday! How did my life get this busy?

Monday, I’m starting a new job! I was hired privately to work on some goals and life skills with a little girl with Aspergers. It will be the first time I’m working out of the home in over a year. I hope it works out because it will help a bit with the finances and I think I will have fun. It is only two 2 hour days a week. Pretty perfect to fit in to my schedule. My mom will help out with childcare but if anyone knows of a really amazing teenager in my area let me know!

In other exciting news… We bought a house! It isn’t a done deal by any means. It is subject to us selling our home, so PLEASE pray that happens quickly. We didn’t have any immediate plans too move and don’t necessarily have to right now but I just happened upon MLS one night when I couldn’t sleep. I found some homes that potentially met our “must haves” and we decided to check them out. Our must have list includes four bedrooms for us and a three bedroom above ground suite for my mom with little to no stairs. I needed a play area in the house for the girls and a bit of a yard in a safe neighborhood, preferably not a busy street. So, the home we made the offer on is brand spanking new house in an older but well kept neighborhood. The yard is MUCH smaller than our current one but that is typical for yards these days. There is a park right around the corner. It doesn’t have a third bedroom in the suite but we can easily put one in ourselves. I guess we’ll see if it works out!

Send me healing thoughts. On top of working a few hours on Monday and Tuesday, Livi has preschool and dance, Sofie has Speech/OT class and music plus a pediatrician appointment and Support meeting. I have a Transition fair, a volunteer meeting, a quick dentist appointment to get my crown finished and then we have the weekend with swim lessons, Sofie’s Active Start, Family Pictures with Jon’s family and end Sunday with Sofie’s birthday party! I’m tired just thinking about it. I need to get rid of this heavy chest and cough and I think I can make it.