One More Week

We are moving in about a week. Thanks to my mother in law, I’m not overly stressed about the packing. We have a bit more to do, but it isn’t overwhelming. I think nearly everything on the pre-move list is done except for changing our address at the post office. I’m excited!

I’m not excited that we have to take from our furniture budget and buy a new laptop. Sofie dumped an entire glass of milk flat on the keyboard and fried the wireless card. The good thing about it is I think I can convince Jon to get me a Macbook Pro for my birthday now… as long as I keep it far away from Sofie!

My first midwife appointment is coming up this week. I’m excited to actually connect with her and hope everything works out. I was asked, yesterday, about whether I wanted a boy or a girl. With Livi, I couldn’t imagine having a boy and was even a little scared of the possibility. I needed to have a girl. I come from a family of girls. I am a girl. I don’t know how to parent or even play with a little a boy. This time, while a girl would be in my comfort zone and a little cheaper to wear all the hand-me-downs of Livi and Sofie, I find myself kind of wanting a baby boy. Not sure what changed, but I think I just want the experience. I love the family grouping of “Daddy and his girls” but am starting to understand wanting a Daddy to have a son. I can honestly say that with this pregnancy I will be very happy and content with either gender.

With this pregnancy being so different from my first, I’m also starting to be convince that I am carrying a boy. Boys will mess you up… in the best way possible… I guess.

So, just a quick update. Not sure how much blogging I’ll get in this week without a laptop to write on in the evenings. My phone is too small to blog on. I’m hoping to write after my midwife appointment though!

Take care and send peaceful, energetic thoughts and prayers my way this week!

Pregnancy

So, I guess I’m about 8 weeks now… I’m still having a bit of a rough time rapping my head around it but I am getting excited. I’m starting to think about whether it will be a boy or a girl. Wondering what it will be like to give birth again… hoping for as good as an experience as I had with Livi. Getting excited for the newborn cuddles, first smiles, first words, first steps, etc.

This pregnancy is NOTHING like my first pregnancy. I had next to no symptoms until well in to my second trimester. Just some sore boobs really. Everything is starting so much earlier this time. I had insomnia and heartburn from before I knew I was pregnant. I just thought it was because I was eating crappy. The fatigue has been debilitating. I’m hoping that this it is in part because of all the stress of the move. Although, I had insomnia with Livi, with children this time and insomnia now I’ll probably be pretty tired the rest of my life! I have already had carpel tunnel symptoms in my wrists. That didn’t start last time until almost the third trimester. I also have started with the nausea. I didn’t have that at all with Livi and was hoping to skate by with out it this time too. Not so lucky. I thought it was just from the fatigue and stress at first, but today it was clear. I have some morning sickness. All day. I’m dizzy too. This kid must be a boy. Boys will mess you up! In a good way I guess 🙂

I never really thought pregnancy brain was a real thing either, until now. I have it BAD. I forget what I am doing, saying or eating in the middle of the activity. I don’t get basic concepts (like our new mortgage) that have never been a problem for me before. I can’t think straight. It is so frustrating.

Anyway, I’m looking forward to this move being over and finding out if all these symptoms are due to being pregnant or the stress of the move.

9 Months!

Sofie has been home for 9 months now! I know it’s cliche but, where has the time gone? Sometimes it feels like she is still quite new but usually it feels like she has always been with us. She was born to be in our family, our daughter and Livi’s sister. We love her so much.

 “What are you looking at punk?”

I don’t usually think about it but sometimes I get so sad that we didn’t get to her sooner. We know almost nothing for sure about her life in Bulgaria. She has a scar that isn’t documented on any of her reports. It is a pretty deep and I hate that I don’t know. She still has night mares. Much less then she used too but I’m sure they are built from memories of her past. I hate that she can’t tell me about it. She has had a lot more behaviors in the last few weeks since I’ve been preoccupied with the move. She needs a lot of attention still and reassurance that we can meet her needs.

Enough about the hard stuff… This is a celebration post! 9 months home! She is doing amazing! She is looking plumper although still hanging out around 26 pounds but growing! (I’ll update the actual number tomorrow.) She sang words at music this month! Kendra (her teacher) noticed too and beamed along with me. She helped me celebrate Mother’s Day as a mom to two! Although I haven’t noticed to many new solid words, some are getting much clearer. She does lack the confidence to use much speech in front of others. She generally saves it for when she is home. She had her first dental cleaning and did pretty good! She had her 4th birthday and first one with us! She is putting more things in her mouth. She has had two different textures in her mouth and liked it and even ate bark mulch today! Crazy land!

She is getting more adventurous too! Not sure that is a good thing… 
We love you Sofie! You are perfectly you and we are so thankful for you!